DeeDee

DeeDee was my dad's friend and at one time had hopes and dreams of being my step mom. She and I talked almost everyday and try as I did to understand, I just couldn't. Drugs took her away on her birthday October 1, 2007.



Questions
I see you staring through me
At the close of every day
I see your hallow eyes
I watch you walk away

Closing in like a raging hurricane
My mind replays the tragedy once again
All the things I could have done
All the words I left unsaid

Did you know how much I loved you?
Did I fail to show it well?
Was my friendship not enough to
Keep you from your hell?

I tried but failed you so
This guilt eats away at my soul
I see you staring through me
Why did you have to go?
©2007LisaM.Earnest

Fragile Rose
A fragile rose
Caught in the thorns of life
Discarded and trampled
By the pain and strife

Like a thorn
Embedded into the skin
Memories brought forth
Despair again

The sun did not shine
She faded in the shade
Her petals drifted silently down
As another fragile rose fell to the ground
©2007LisaM.Earnest

Too Long
I ask myself
From night to dawn
Why have so many gone?
Was it because I did something wrong?
Perhaps I tried to hold on too long

Through the sea of beds
I carry my own
Another prayer said
Another seed sewn
Perhaps I tried to hold on too strong

One by one by one by one
They drifted to sleep
I stand, alone
Memories of loved ones, I try to keep
Forgive me, perhaps I held on too long
©2008LisaM.Earnest